snow
driving long
music on
dark gloomy tuesdays
shining on
happiness
see my baby soon hey
look at us
loosing it
wasting our time on
buggin out
arguin
dissonance from our
connected lips
miss the kiss
miss everything so
cold and dark
bring back the sun and my summer love
please please
you
gotta-seperated-heart-you
you you
gotta-melt-the-cloud
gotta-melt-the-cloud-down
please please
you
gotta-fight-to-keep-strong
you you
gotta-turn-the-sun-on
gotta-turn-the-sun-back-on
hardest part
isn’t you
isn’t eachother
isn’t the time we spend
with one another
home alone
you in dorm
fighting to get through
puzzle piece hearts
being cut with a season change
hope for sun
fight frozen rain
loves interupted
tiny room
after june
hoping to flow back
down through
river streams
I-80 ice skates
escapade
to your place
hoping to free you
HOME
you and me could float
into the morning sun
now i got you cold
got our coats and mittens on
walking down the dirty road
on the campus there
we camp together in your room
to fall asleep without a tear
1:34 pm • 14 May 2010 • 1 note
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here’s a demo of most likely the first track for the grapevines demo ben van patten and i are recording this summer
5:09 pm • 11 May 2010
why wouldn’t i work towards making my life everything i want it to be? being a dreamer is only a bad thing if you don’t combine your dreams, passion, and drive to become a realist; then no one should call you a dreamer.
2:06 pm • 11 May 2010
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My Childhood Idol. Who knows where I’d be today without blink 182? not I sir. Not I.
12:23 am • 6 May 2010
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makes me feel so happy. love this fuckin song.
12:18 am • 6 May 2010
I want to contribute so much more to my relationship with Lucy. I want to be so much more to her than just the kid waiting back at home that tries every chance he can to get her to open up to him over a text message. I wish she could see how much I really love her and I wish she could let go of tiny mistakes I have made in the past. I love her and I always have. The best part of our relationship is the time we spend together, and unfortunately as of right now our restrictions keep us from that opportunity. Our laid back feel and mutual love is road blocked by tiny stupid arguments that neither one of us can control. we are just 2 goofballs wanting to take care of everyone in the world, but neither one of us can even take care of ourselves sometimes. We have fought so hard to make it through this year and neither one of us expected it to be such a battle. In amazement I am coming out of high school with a plan in my pocket. I used to worry about money and wat ppl wanted me to do, but I don’t care about those things anymore. I have love and even if I ever lose it (which i don’t plan on doing) I will go down fighting to keep it alive. I have joy in the sky, in the air; in the voices of children I have joy. I don’t care if anyone has ever said I was stupid, because they may be right, but I see it differently. I dont care if anyone has ever thought of me as selfish, because they are completely wrong. I am growing and changing everyday and using love to fuel me in everything I do. If I die tomorrow so be it, but my job on this earth is to bring joy to everyone I can. I wont sit around and sulk on my own sadness unless I have a purpose for it. I have been sad. I have been tired. I have had my head smashed into the ground. I have lost a person I loved with all of my heart who is now buried in the ground. I have lost my home multiple times. I have seen violence at its worst and regret being a part of it, but I have seen so much good in my life. I have seen a couples 50th wedding anniversary. I have seen a baby take its first steps. I have seen 30,000 kids who have all felt pain and suffered in their lives come together to be friends just for one night because of music. I have seen a boy dying every day in suffering, but never, not once complaining. I have seen my father cry and my mother too and i have kissed a flower and gave it to the girl I loved. I dont ever want to fight. I just want everything to be summer happy and i want to embrace any adversity I face. for my family, for my future wife, for my future children i want to make life better I just want to have Lucy’s smile back in my pocket. I just want her to come to me to feel the way she feels, and I just want to listen because, me, I was made for her, and I don’t know anything else that I even remotely want as much as to have Lucy here with me smiling and open. not agitated with my laziness or goofyness. Happy with me the way I am as i am with her. I keep fighting everyday cuz its all I’ve ever wanted since the first time she slept in my bed, I knew I would never sleep the same again.
5:26 pm • 5 May 2010 • 3 notes
wouldnt mind having one of these
11:34 pm • 8 April 2010